I think I have made me decision regarding FMLA

My sister has a way of getting me all worked up and making me feel as if I am doing Quinn wrong if I don't stay home longer with him and with my hormones jumping around as of lately it's very easy to make me feel unsure. But I got to thinking, this friend of ours who was able to take off Three months to stay at home with her newborn is a Doctor and her husband I believe is a proffesser of medicine. Tony and I make OK money, we pay the bills and have some left over to have some fun. We even have a good chance at saving a great deal when we get our credit cards in order. But I will never make a doctors salary. Which means I have to make certain sacrafices. One being that I can't sit at home and not get paid.

To sit home and not get paid is to put Quinn in more jeapordy, Tony and I do not have much of any savings, we live paycheck to paycheck. It's kinda like playing russian rulette but when it was just the two of us it was fine. Now I need every cent I can get and to start saving right away. Which means no FMLA.

I realize that the part time working at home deal wouldn't have worked anyway since we have an entire new system in place at work that I will have to be trained on when I return. Can't work from home if I don't know what the hell I'm doing. But I did forget that I am taking one of my vacations right after the six weeks so technically I have seven weeks with him. I have a feeling that allthough it will break my heart to drop him off with strangers, I might enjoy some time away and adult conversation. I think I need both worlds.

You gotta do what ya gotta do...

Tony and I are actually very lucky comparied to most, we're not rich, we're middle class, and I'm fine with that. We make an honest living and have plenty to provide a child. My mother struggled with us and to tell you the truth I have no idea how she did it. She managed to feed and clothe two children throughout Highschool on a 24,000 dollar salary as a single mother, she bought a house AND put herself through college with srtraight A's. How she did this is beyond me. Tony and I make close to 90-100 dollars a year, depending on his overtime and we still struggle. I believe it's time to take lesson's from mom.

Speaking of overtime,

Tony was supposed to be home at 11am today. Apparently the higher ups are getting mad that some people from Tony's office are getting over 60 hours a week, including Tony. So they have been sending the overtimers's home when they reach sixty. It's a new rule, no more over sixty hours a week. Because after sixty it's not time in a half, it's double time, which means big bucks. So this morning Tony had 56 hours, he expected to work 4 hours and then be told to go home just like the carriers on previous days. We were all excited because that meant he would have to stay home tomorrow also which is the last day of his week. But don't ya know they always bend the rules in Tony's case. They asked him to stay and work the day out, Why does everyone else get sent home at sixty hours and Tony gets the privalige to stay and break this new rule that the managers are being told to uphold.

I was very much looking forward to having a few days with him, he's been working six days a week and for like 13 hours a day! I find it a bit suspicious that ALWAYS in Tony's case they bend the rules. I think Tony is telling them that he'll take any hours they give him then coming home to me and saying "look what they did to me"

He's so worried about finances right now that he is killing himself... I keep asking him to relax but he thinks he needs to take any thing he can get. Which in the long run is very responsible but in my hormonal state, I'm pissed :)

Well at least he did put in for four weeks off to spend with the baby and I believe it was approved so this quiet isolation may only last two more weeks.