I'm writing this dates blog a day in advance... Today (friday) is a BIG day. There is a certain person in my life that I have not seen or spoken too in 9 to 10 years that will be "re-entering" the world today (friday).

I'm not sure how to feel about this, considering I am the reason he has been gone. I can only hope that he has found peace and will find a happy place in life.

I worry very much about his present state of mind. Is he feeling vengful? Or has he accepted his errors and learned from them. I know I will see him again one day, I fear I may pass out in anxiety if I open my door one day to see him standing there. I have considered calling him once he is settled just to calm my own nerves.

It's not that I fear him, I actually love him very much regardless of the past. But I know the man he was ten years ago and I would never fear that man, I do not know who he is now and I don't know where his mind has been for ten years.

I don't know what's gonna happen to my mind when I wake friday morning...