Yesterday, I got the call. My glucose level is too high. It should be around 135 and I'm at 148. I have to go take the three-hour glucose test.

I very scared, I've been reading up on what it takes to keep diabetes in check and it doesn't look fun. Plus there are risks for Quinn.

I don't know whether to be mad at myself or not. Some sites say it's a matter of my diet and other sites say "gestational" diabetes just happens sometimes due to the placenta making certain hormones. Either way I'm pissed, angry, sad, scared!

I have the three hour test set up for Friday Morning 7am, I'll have to take off work since I won't be done until around 11am. I guess I could go in for a few hours but I'm gonna be shakin up until I get the results so maybe Tony and I will do something fun.

Next Wednesday is my appointment to check if I'm closer to getting cancer or not. I tested ten weeks ago and was looking steady but one can't help but worry! I'll have to have a "procedure" after the baby is born so the doctors are just hoping all will go well until then.

And the blasted month of June just keeps going... this afternoon I found out that our bunny Flip Flop died. We have no idea how, He was doing his normal hoppidy routine, and all seemed well. Tony went to let our dogs out and noticed Flip Flop looking tired early in the morning, a few hours later he was gone. Tony didn't think anything of him looking tired because Flip Flop and Strudel (guinea pig) have full run of the den all night long, so it made sense that he'd be tired early in the morning. In looking up "sudden bunny death" on google, there appears to be an endless amount of things that can happen to a bunny.

Anyone who knows me knows I can't handle death, I had a complete meltdown, I can't handle not knowing why and if it was our fault! I especially feel bad for strudel, he's a real shy little guy and his only friend was flip flop. He used to sleep on flip flops back. So what do I do, get another guinea pig for strudel or leave him alone. I have trouble with leaving animals alone, so another guinea pig might be in the future.

Did I mention JUNE SUCKS!

On a positive note, we started birthing classes last night. At points it was just down right silly, but I noticed it really helped Tony to get into the process.