So Tony decided to drop another bomb on me last night. Every once in a while he drops a huge secret or tells me something he's been lying about ... this time it's medical. His mom has diabetes, which I knew but last night he finally decides to tell me the he was also classified as "borderline" diabetic. And the only reason he told me was to win an argument, you know, the last word kind thing. Which is how all his secrets or lies get dropped.

That was in my opinion a secret you don't keep. It's now not just something I'm dealing with temporarily. Now it becomes a family history kind of thing. All those times of filling out paperwork for Quinn and I didn't know! Why would he not find that important? I'm so confused and frustrated by him at this point. Why all the secrets! I tried to ask him later on and his answer was, I just didn't think I needed to tell you... ???????

Talked to Mad again today, her brain is a file cabinet of information. I feel bad, her little girl had to have six shots in the thigh today. Quinn will too, It's going to kill me to see that. And the circumcision, OH MY GOD - STOP THE INSANITY!

I had my final cancer check, well at least during the pregnancy. Hopefully nothing has progressed. I'll find out soon I suppose. I'll have to have the "procedure" ten weeks after the baby is born.

With the onset of diabetes and the possibility of cancer, I'm feeling the "why me's" a lot. It's really getting me down. Plus I have a certain person returning to my life in about month. It's quite a serious situation, I have not seen him in nine years, and he may be PISSED or indifferent. I'm extremely worried about it... I think maybe it's time to sit and talk to a professional. I try to talk to my family and friends, but it's human nature I suppose for people to compare there problems with yours and say things like "yeah, well guess what happened to me" or "you think that's bad, listen to this" I need to get my problems out with a person who understands and isn't looking to compare notes.